Complex Emotions.

Today was the day that I did not know what to say.

Was I happy today? Perhaps. But there was another something tinting the edges, threatening to encroach and take over all together. Not quite the opposite, it was something a little less than melancholy, and yet much more intense than indifferent.

Was I Sombre?

I don't think that I have the words for the emotion, but it's something I've been feeling more of lately, as I witness the world moving on, determined to forge a new future based on the promise of brighter days ahead. Yet still, there will always remain those things that can never be forgotten.

Was I Solemn?

I suspect the complexity of emotions arises because I don't know what the news actually means. Are we now safer? Has justice been served? Is the Mission finally Accomplished?

Was I Reflective?

Or is this a new beginning to a new, unwritten story? Speaking of which, what will future generations say about this particular chapter of our story? What will I tell my girls about it in the years to come?

Was I Grateful?

I decided to go inward today. I took a media break to exercise some restraint, because I think that no matter what any of us said today, it may have been something that hurt someone else.

Was I Cautious?

And more than anything else, I am tired of hurting. I think that after everything we have endured over the past nine and a half years, we all are tired of hurting.

Was I Relieved?

Perhaps yes, to all of the above.

I don't really know what to say about that, either.

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Be well today and every day my, friends. And live in peace.

- Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illumines it. - Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.